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Yesterday I re-re-started my diet/life change. Exciting! I am going to take it one week at a time, seven days at a time. I think one of the problems I have had, amongst many I'm sure, is that I think too big sometimes.  With so much weight to lose (60+ lbs.) I get so focused on that big number that I lose sight of the small victories. So I've decided to change my strategy and focus on just one week at a time.

I know I've written about my goal before but nothing else is going on so I'll write about it again. Lucky you! I want to be confident enough to wear a bathing suit on my birthday-my 30th birthday which is July 2 of this year. I'm not saying I have to be a certain weight-even though I'm sure that it would at least be in the high 140's. I just want to put on a retro swimsuit, a big floppy hat, and sit on the beach or next to a sparkling pool somewhere. If I have it my way, I'd either like to go to Catalina or San Diego. But just as long as I can go anywhere I would be happy!

I just am tired of having this problem. I am tired of worrying about my weight and how I look. It's time for me to get off my but and do something about it. Yesterday, I walked on my mom's treadmill for 10 minutes with a roughly 10% incline. Let me tell you, this thing is no joke! It is so hard! By 5 minutes I am gasping for breath. sweating, and my quads for rock hard. I have to literally battle with myself to continue! Then, when I go home later in the day, I did: 30 bicep curls (6 lbs.), 20 tricep curls (2 lbs.), 20 crunches, and 15 leg lifts. It's a start, that's all I can say.

So my next weigh in is Tuesday night and I really hope to lose some weight to jump start this whole thing-get a little motivation. Picking foods that are filling, fulfilling, and low in points is really, really hard. Yesterday I had: 1 yogurt, 6" Subway sandwich, Turkey sloppy joes, Oven potatoes, salad and a 10 calorie jello for desert. You know what? I ended the day with 3 extra points! I didn't use any of my weekly points so I am VERRRRRY happy about that. I really don't want to use any of my weekly points this week. I just want to eat right and exersice and see what the results are. I'm even having tea this morning instead of coffee so I don't have any extra calories. I even contemplated NOT having gummy vitamins yesterday because 2 are 15 calories! Boy, talk about a new me.

But one thing I know for sure, the first day is easiest. That's when you are still self-motivated and gung-ho about it all. The  2nd through 4th day's are the hardest I think. It takes a couple days for your body to adjust the less amounts of food and to quit knawing and growling. :)

So hopefully I'm able to put the monster to rest finally. I feel so much better when I exercise and eat right. Then I don't have that guilt.

And if anyone is looking for a 3 pt. sloppy joe, here it is: Use 99% fat free ground turkey breast, Hunt's Manwich sauce-must be this one because it has only 40 calories per serving PLUS 2g fiber, the others don't have fiber. And I found a 1 point bun at Winco. I don't remember the brand, but it had 100 calories and 5g of fiber-Nature something. But even Kevin liked them! What was even better was that I was able to have 2 and I felt full.

SO good luck to me on the journey and hopefully with hard work and dedication, it will pay off for a wonderful summer!